Chapter 5- Part 5- Remi's Story

Part 5

All I could fee in that very moment was a rush of emotions. With me, Nik never expressed he wanted a family or to grow old. All I felt was shame and just a toy being used by Nik for all his guilty pleasures. All the love that once was there when we met was faded away, and in my life that’s all happy things ended up doing was just fading away like a fire just being blown to smithereens.

I wanted to cry and scream our as I saw how happy Nik was buying that stroller, a double one at that so I knew he had a family growing. When I found out I was pregnant that night at the party I was so excited to grow with Nik thinking maybe, just maybe he would want me as I had always wanted and looked at him in pure love, but it never was like that.

I don’t know why the rush of emotions hit me, it had been 3 years since I last saw Nik but the fact he dumped me with no remorse and just threw me away like a piece of trash he used up and had his fill of just made it that more painful for revenge. I guess I wanted him to feel the same pain I felt.

I don’t know really what came over me but that day I made it a purpose to Nik  I was better off. I walked up pushing aside the pain with a full bright smile as Nik_  looked up seeing me. He had the biggest smile, I don’t know what for but he was happy to see me. He shook my hand gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek, said he had to rush out but to catch up sometime. Don’t ask me why but the old hateful me from the drugs and the alcohol was rushing over, though I had cleaned up and was happy with my life now. Something seeing Nik brought everything full force back.

I followed Nik home, I waited when he went inside, and I saw he didn’t shut the garage. I got out and tip toed into his home, yes not a very smart plan breaking and entering so to speak but I wanted to do something anything to hurt him as he did me. I waited hearing the shower as he got in and for a few I looked around, seeing a blonde, the same blonde at the party pictures throughout the home of her and a small boy about Nikko’s age. It all seemed like the happy home, for a second I took a step back “what am I doing?” I was scared, in pain.

The memories of him and I everything flushed over me. As I heard Nik get out, as I walked up the stairs I saw him plop in bed a pillow over his face. That was my chance. I tip toed in and went to the bathroom taking off my clothes and putting on his shirt. I wasn’t going to seduce him, I wanted him to feel like he lost everything, so I waited. Waited until she came home. And that was my chance.

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That happened 3 weeks ago….. I am still ashamed of what I did, its why I kept trying to text his woman the pain I had gone through but couldn’t tell her exactly why. I couldn’t tell them about Nikko. I didn’t want Nikko to grow up in a broken home and all I was doing was breaking this home apart.

I just wanted my life of love and passion back, but as I really look I never really had that. From my dad, my mom steve tried but it wasn’t his fault I couldn’t make friends being depressed and lonely. Then there was nik someone I though I could finally be the person I wanted to be with, someone I thought would be there for me if he knew he was gonna be a dad, but that chance was taken from me and like I knew would happen, he became a dad and the love I wanted and craved she got.

It wasn’t her fault, she didn’t know Nik was with me before he got with her, she didn’t know the pain he caused and here I was causing the same pain he caused me to her, she didn’t deserve that. I picked up my phone and started to text her as I finished the message a car pulled up to my drive way. #Nikko was playing in the front by the screen as a very pregnant woman walked up and all I could see was she just stopped straight seeing #Nikko.

I couldn’t help but notice it was the same woman I had confronted at Nik home, it was Nik Wife Maziqueen . I panicked, why was she here what did she want. I didn’t want to fight or cause anything I wanted Nik hurt not her, as she walked up slowly I bent down telling #Nikko to go play inside. I walked to the door, “I don’t want trouble please let me just explain?” before I knew it I saw Mazi run to her car and drive off like a bat out of hell. I needed to talk to her.

I got #Nikko fast and buckled him, I knew it was a longshot and I definitely did not want a run in with Nik but it was the only chance I had at trying to fix the broken home I had started. I grew up that way and knew what it was like, Mazi and her children did not need the same pain I went through.

I kept up speed but at the same time making sure #Nikko was kept out of harms way. I finally caught up with Mazi and low and behold she was already outside yelling at Nik I shook my head knowing this was all my fault. How could I have put her through this. I sighed as I pulled up and got out, knowing Nik and Mazi had saw me, they stood stunned as I brought up #Nikko.

“Nikko baby you stay here with momma okay,” I said softly. I knew this was the only way now, and #Nikko had to see Nik at some point why not now. Little did I know I was in for a run for my money. #TBC