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Darkness reminds Us

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I believe that the darkness reminds us where the light can be All you have to do is really open your eyes to see Every little corridor can be a blessing in disguise Even in my heart I feel it wise The light needs the darkness to remind us who we are Whether near or far Even in the toughest times I feel as though the darkness gives us a ray of hope Not like we are hanging from a thin line of rope The darkness reminds us that the light is just around the corner It reminds us of who we once were The light shines in giving us a ray of desire It fills us up with balls of fire Whether down or up I will always keep the faith in me To let it out and be free The darkness only gives me a chance to grow Even when I'm low It reminds me that not everything will turn out as planned That the darkness and light go hand in hand

Even if it hurts

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Even if it hurts I gotta know the truth about everything You gotta tell me how it is bring it up about anything I ain't worried if its gonna hurt cuz even deep down I know Even if I feel high or feel low Time after time I told you once before My life is like an open door Either be true Or tell me we are threw Deep inside these feelings lay I can't keep them at bay Tell me once tell me twice Its gotta be something to sacrifice Give it to me Let me decide to be free Even if it hurts through and through At least I know what you said to be true I ain't about to give it my all If a you're gonna do is make me fall Just tell me what's wrong and what's right Let me bring myself to the light I will give it my all Until im nothing at all I will love you until you give up on us Because there's nothing without trust I give my all my soul my life Give it all until you cut me with a knife Even if it hurts tell me you don't love me So th

The Beauty of A Monster- Chapter Four

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After what seemed like hours, but only minutes had passed by I finally got up the courage and the tears starting to subside, to walk down the path to my home. I couldn’t take any more of this pain, it was killing me inside, it was like blackness was trying to take over but I didn’t know what it was or how to react. All I could do was straighten myself up and walk in like nothing had happened, like I was on top of the world even if I felt like it was being ripped at the seams. I put in the key to the dark red door and turned it as I grabbed the knob taking in a deep breath for the shit storm I knew I was about to walk in to. I opened the door and walked into my home as if I wasn’t scared from what the day had brought before.      I walked in, placing my hands in my pockets after moving my hair to the side of my shoulder. The house seemed so cold not the loving feeling I had once felt before. Mother was on the black sofa her feet up and a glass of whiskey in her dainty small fingers

The Beauty of A Monster- Chapter Three

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     My boyfriend was named Xavier. He was my age and the star football player. I met him in the beginning of the school year and as soon as we met things just clicked and I knew he was the one. He was everything all the girls ever wanted. Tall, gorgeous smile, beautiful eyes that would make my heart melt; my nick name for him was jack and mine was ace. We together made Jace. I loved him with all who I was all I could be. I knew at such a young age everyone always told me how could we know love so young but our hearts were as one and we just knew it was meant to be. We knew each other inside out... He’d pick me up constantly so I wouldn’t have to hear the fighting amongst both my parents’ day and night; he hated me being around such hatred. He wanted to know I was safe and safe with him. Constantly telling me I was loved and nothing and no one could come between us like how my parents are together. He told me I was forever his.      He’d take me to our spot. We had this

Lows To High- Hazel's Story Part Four- A Past Life

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#OntoAmerica-      So our trip to America began, and my new found spirit inside me with a burning desire to Kill light like no fire ever lite before. America would be my new playground and a time to start fresh. Not just for myself, but the relationship I had with Dario. Things didn’t change the way I felt for Dario in fact his willingness to help me and set me free without consequence made me see him in a better light, Little did I know his darkest secret was my demise with Lorenzo, but at the same time it made me his best creation yet.      The moment I turned off my humanity I wasn’t the same love struck girl I once was. I didn’t let anyone just run or walk all over me including Dario and he couldn’t help but love the new found me. It was the push I needed that Lorenzo gave up on me to get my way in the door to take control over my life and not let just anyone walk in and even show me an ounce of love. I didn’t care anymore and I wasn’t going to start.      The day we

Just say it

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There comes a time in my life I gotta sit here and think of all the memories Think of what could have been, should’ve been, would’ve been and all the similarities But this heart of mine has got to give in It can’t be something that I’m afraid I’ll sin I have made up my mind, I am letting go of everything I had and I am moving on I can no longer just be some chest pawn In your little game of lies and deceit I can’t let my heart be beat I’m not just gonna just sit in line while you pick what’s wrong or right Because there comes a time in my life I have to give up the fight I won’t let this heart of mine bleed While I wait to be freed This is a little taste from me to you I don’t need to sit here trying to come with why I am feeling blue This time I will let my voice be heard Each and every word Trust me I will regret nothing Its time I stand up and just say something

The Beauty of A Monster - Chapter Two

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Chapter Two      After being born, I knew my life wasn’t going to be chocolate and rose’s kind of love. I knew by the way my mother was already acting things would not be as it was played to be. She played the part quite well, the devoted lover, or the perfect girlfriend to even the prefect mom. Even as a small child the way she talked and acted with me in the scenes with her boyfriends and behind the scenes with just me wasn’t at all pleasant. I didn’t feel the love as a child should have felt, or even felt I was a child at heart merely by the fact the intelligence I had as a baby grew and grew with each passing day.      I knew I wasn’t like most kids and for some odd reason my parents didn’t have a problem with whom or what I was becoming. Besides the growing intelligence with each passing day people around me seemed to change, and the older they got as well as the older I got. I thought it was just the normal process and that years had passed and I just seemed to leave